Waiting.....waiting....waiting.....that is what summarizes these days of ours. We try to live each day to the fullest and not worry about the future but when your waiting on word from the Air Force to determine your next "move", waiting for your house to sell (in a rotten market!), waiting for a hand to recover/heal but still looking at two surgeries in the months ahead - it gets hard.
Yes, we believe our future is in the Lord's hands and everything will happen in perfect timing according to His will! However, between Satan's lies and our own sinful flesh, it is easy to get frustrated, impatient and sometimes feel like your just sitting without purpose. It's giving up that control. When you have everything planned out and then all of a sudden everything you thought was going to happen in a certain neat little time frame gets turned upside down. For those who don't know...Jon got an infection in his hand and it ruined the repaired tendon. They had to remove the tendon and will now have to graft one from his wrist into his thumb. He has gone through two surgeries and is looking at two more with 8-9 months of total recovery. We still don't know exactly what the AF is going to do, but we are expecting to be put on hold here until they know how much function he will have. He has passed his boards and is now licensed as a nurse but is working in the ROTC office at the U of M. This has added many complications and obstacles to our life that we did not foresee. Nothing life threatening, praise God for that, and nothing that patience, discipline and humility along with time won't take care of. I'm sure we will look back at this time somewhere in the future and be grateful for the lessons we will learn through this time and see how the Lord used it for good, as He promises to do! That doesn't make it always easy......that great refining fire!
I know our life is full of so many blessings, more than I could ever count! I know the purpose for our life is not only in "what" we do but "how we do it". The Lord has purpose for us everyday in every action we do and every word we say. So even though we feel our "plan" is on hold, our life is not. We just have to give up our control to the Lord and trust, walk in faith. Once again our marriage verse is tested: "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on our own understanding in all of your ways acknowledge him and he will make your path straight."
I don't know if my ramblings mean much to you but as I've written it out, the Lord has given me encouragement for today .... thank you Lord!
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